Callous=gone :-)
Wow, it's been a long time since I updated this blog. When it started, it was a way for me to talk about how "stuck" I was about Melanie. After I visited her, I was doing a lot better and guess I didn't feel the need to update here.I was in a relationship from Feb-Aug of last year, but it was similar to the one before: I loved as much as I could, but how much I could love wasn't much. If that makes any sense. I felt like I was giving 100%, but my 100% was a normal person's 25%. And this was probably true. Like Jenn said, I was calloused about love. Then Judith came along.
This past summer I reconnected with a girl I went to junior high with (thanks, Facebook!) I visited her in NYC in October and something clicked. Over Christmas, she visited and we started dating. From the beginning, I knew I loved her in a way I had never loved anyone else. I am moving up to NYC this summer to be with her. From the get-go, my 100% has been everyone else's 150% :-) I never held back. I plunged into this one head-on, happy to do so.
Sure, there's still anger with Melanie, but only if I happen to think about her. And guess what: I don't. She isn't anywhere on the radar anymore.
Thanks again for all the support, everyone.
posted by Jeremy W. Kerr @ 1:50 AM
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