possible journey
When I sheepishly told my therapist that I had considered going across the entire country to see Her one more time, she didn't laugh, but encouraged it. I had said, "I know it makes no sense..." but she pointed out to me that love isn't logical. I've been trying to get out of my "stuck" place using logic but maybe I should do something crazy instead. I said I only wanted to see her so I could say goodbye. She said it was actually a really good idea; I've been stuck in the grieving place that happens before ever saying goodbye to one you love. When She and I last saw each other, it was so awkward and hard that there wasn't really any closure. My therapist actually said, "I support you on making that trip."So now I am trying to figure out when I can go cross-country.
posted by Jeremy W. Kerr @ 2:02 AM
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But as empty and heartbreaking as this experience was.... You are brave. You have traveled. You have met people and made new friends. This is way more than I can say. I'm too afraid to go anywhere. I'm too shy to make new friends. You have Lived Jeremy! Open your eyes and know who you are and what you want in life because you are brave, and wonderful, and sensitive, and open to new opportunities, new experiences, new anything, but yet you still love the old and familiar. Jeremy, you are a beautiful person.... and as much as I HATE to hear this saying "Happiness is a state of mind," I do believe it is true. I am in a happy marriage full of support and love, but I tell ya, at times I feel soooo lonely and sad. And I know that no one can make me happy. I have to find that peace and happiness in myself. I don't want to preach to you (Lord knows who am I to talk) but I don't want you to miss the life your living now. (that said, I need to take that advice also.) I have been missing my little girl so badly and trying to figure out a way to have children that..... I have forgotten what I was supposed to be living for in the first place. I am waiting on my life to start when I have children. How sad. Let's just live. ;)
Thank you so much for all of your support, Jodhi. I read this comment from you every day. :)
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